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anonymous — review of MDMA comedown as per request


review of MDMA comedown as per request



at about 7:00 PM i think, my friend and i walked from her car to a [place omitted] to meet friends
neither of us were particularly interested in going but we still went
via setting up the event and feeling shitty about canceling it

so we finally got out of her car and the breeze felt amazing
i felt definitely capable of interacting with people
we met our friends in the parking lot
i didn't really feel the MDMA anymore other than just chills

did [omitted activity], i think the feeling completely wore off then
thought i had to have a specific event in order to have a fun time on MDMA, but the specific event just made me come down faster because i wasn't with the right people/doing the right thing i suppose

after [omitted activity] we tried to figure out what to do
we stood in the parking lot, i remember saying things like "i'm not qualified to make decisions right now"
we all decided to go to a park
i didn't feel it at all, felt a little tired, other friend was invited to several parties so we decided to go to one
it was three people with two cars, can't really remember how the driving situation went down
but i specifically remember being in friend's car (the one who didn't take MDMA)
i was in the front passenger seat and my friend who had done MDMA was behind me
i reclined my seat and she touched my hair
that's when i really started to feel the comedown
i got really tired and calm and kind of sad, but i think the calm was only related to my friend touching my hair
other friend had the radio playing, i never sing but i started singing because i felt so calm
felt like i was at the bottom of the ocean or something, felt an intangible kind of sadness not related to a concrete thing
more like, just feeling the loss of a really good feeling

kept reassuring myself that i would be okay at the party, that i could just be on the couch with her and not talk to people and that seemed fine
got to the 'party', it was basically just two guys hanging out
i drank a beer
we watched some terrible movie, about wives or bosses or something, i think adam sandler or that guy from 'night at the museum' was in it, i didn't understand the plot line whatsoever

i melted into a leather desk chair and i felt pretty good there, kind of gave up on caring about things, but felt baseline unhappy
my friend slouched a lot, i looked at her and thought "that is how i feel"
i think my body hurt a little, just felt really tired and uninterested in people/the things happening to me then


we went to the train tracks and looked at the ocean and it looked like a wall
like in 'the truman show'
mildly panicked
left at like 12:30 AM i think
friend who hadn't done MDMA drove us home, other friend who had passed out in the backseat and i continued to sing as we made our way back to my house

i felt incredibly shitty the next day
i usually don't get hungover, i just feel sad the next day, but this day was even worse
texted my friend who did MDMA with me and she felt really shitty too
it took a few days for me to feel normal/happy again, but i think my experience taking MDMA outweighed the shitty feelings of the comedown


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