anonymous — review of mdma

review of MDMA


went to asian neighborhood of my town at about 3:30 with a friend
we parked behind autobody repair shop, office buildings, and an apartment
friend took capsule at about 4:00
we got out of her car and sat on the strip of grass in between the buildings and the sidewalk
got up, attempted to find another spot to sit (blanket and water in hand)
found an exploded fast food meal (pictured below), stared at it in wonder, and photographed it
was probably the best piece of art i have ever seen
repeatedly asked friend "are you feeling it", with mixed responses
were unable to find a better place to sit, felt trapped, went back to car





we sat on her car, i took my capsule at about 4:30 (unsure about actual time)
climbed onto/inside car via sunroof, played music through her car's stereo
friend began to make noises and lean her head back a lot
she touched things and kept popping in and out of the car and then she leaned back and made another noise and then we both went into the car
she said something about 'peaking'
we got out of the car again, i sat on the back and she had her head out of the sunroof
i began to 'feel it', the world was just really nice to look at, my heart was beating faster and i looked at my friend and began to cry because she looked so beautiful
i took a picture and posted it on instagram


we went into her car and played death grips and i peaked and everything i touched gave me chills
every song that played was so perfect, i kept moving my head and touching things
people/families kept walking past us but i didn't really care
i made noises that weren't moans
i didn't feel 'sexual' but i think the magnitude of the feelings i was experiencing then were up to par with feelings of a 'sexual' nature, if that makes sense
touched my arms and my hair a lot, friend touched my hair too


every time i moved my body, it felt like sparks were shooting off me
like amphetamine chills but so much better
i felt in control, like if i needed to do something important, i would be capable of doing that, but once the important thing was over, i could go back to enjoying the high
it was also kind of like if you're ever really high on weed and you have that feeling that time washes over you and that you keep 'waking up'
it was like that but with warmth, and i didn't feel like i was 'waking up', just like the feeling of happiness and goodness kept renewing itself


i don't think my friend and i talked about anything other than MDMA while we were on MDMA
at one point we switched from death grips to this one janet jackson remix and we listened to that on repeat for about two hours
it was so good
there's a sound in the beginning that sounded exactly like how i felt
every time the sounds changed in the song, i got chills


i just felt really good, felt hard for me to worry about the future/past
kept saying like 'oh shit' and rubbing my arms and 'oh my god this is so good, i feel so good, god i love it'
we basically just sat in my friend's car for about 3+ hours in a strange asian part of town, and we were completely fine with that
not sure i would've wanted to be anywhere else


i don't think i would want to do it around a lot of people
i enjoyed being with just one other person in a relatively small space where i could control what was going on
music seemed essential
also having another person to touch my hair
and things to look at and marvel at their beauty


wow i guess, out of 10 i would give MDMA a 7 or 8, i recommend it
seems easy to want to do it a lot though, would be weary of that
i believe that it would be enjoyable at a 'party' or 'rave' setting, but i personally liked having a one-on-one interaction
absolutely have good music, maybe play it in a way that you can feel it (like the bass)
feel like i should conclude with 'don't do this' or 'i don't encourage/condone drug use for anyone' or something
so don't ;-) do ;-) drugs ;-)